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[Aug. 24th, 2005|08:57 pm] |
I seriously can't wait to get out of high school.. I definately don't think it's everything it's talked up to be.. I want to get out and move away to college and start all over.. Im just tired of Cape Coral and just everything! I miss middle school days where my only real problems were boys.. or friends.. I hate growing up.. it just forces me to face the real world and real problems.. Lately I've just been so depressed.. SO much is going on and theres nothing I can do about it.. I just have to sit back and watch it all happen around me .. i just want to check out of my life for a couple of days... but of course.. I cant. I try to hold it in and just not say much about it because I dont want to bum other people out.. but i just cant hold it in anymore.. This past year: -my parents got divorced -my dad moved away -mom got a new boyfriend,( who i cant stand )- he's totally changed her This past week: -My dad was diagnosed with cancer, and he is going to have to have treatments and surgeries and i hate it that i cant be with him- I hate that he has to go through all of this alone.. I seriously wish I could just take it away from him- I hate to see other people have to go through things like that- Its hard enough for me, I cant even imagine how he must feel -My brother moved to Penn. for college :( i miss him!! -My classes are so hard...they stress me out... and trying to keep my grades up-ugh.. -I miss my best friend, Joy! -since shes not at mariner now i dont get to see her much:( -I miss Andy- he's living in Colorado.. :( Sometimes I just feel like no one understands me, like i dont know who to turn to to talk to when Im having a hard time... I dont know... i guess I just needed to vent! UGH... Anyways... cheerleadings going good- first pep rally is tomorrow and game- Im excited- I think im gonna start interning at one of the hospitals. . :) so that'll be fun! only 2 more days till the weekend... |
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[May. 23rd, 2005|02:59 pm] |
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Congrats seniors-! Im gonna miss all of you :( It's so weird at school without ya!-
Well havent updated in a while..I kinda forgot I had this.. Lots has been going on though so i dont really have the time anymore.. Anyways- Im so excited about summer...Its gonna be awesome :) Alison-Shana-and I are going to Typhoon Lagoon- We definately have to make those plans and decide what hotel to stay at! - Then im going to Colorado with Andy :) and cheer camp-
This weekend is Andys graduation-its up in Orlando-Its so weird everyones graduating-
-Schnoz-if you ever read these anymore comment-:) We have to do something soon we havent spent Schnoz/Schmoo time together in so long I miss it :(
:)bye... |
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[Mar. 13th, 2005|01:33 pm] |
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Wow.. That word basically describes my life these past few months.. Its been crazy lately.. I know that God is just putting these things in my life to make me a stronger person.. - Ive been thinking about that a lot lately and I honestly think that some time during my life I'm going to be an inspirational/motivational speaker to young girls.. I feel like thats part of Gods plan for my life.. . I can relate to so many issues because of things that have been going on lately.
On another note...
Im really excited about prom.. I cant wait- I think its going to be soo much fun this year! - Im going with Andy and I think we're going in a group with Robert and Tiff, Andrea and Cody, Nate and Ashley and maybe Brandon and his girlfriend.. Roberts trying to get Andy and I tickets to go to the North/Ft.Myers prom too because he's going.. and thats going to be an awesome prom.. I heard that MTV is going to be there because some girl is getting MADE-- anyone else heard about that? is that true??-
Well I guess that's it Im tired- I might go take a nap before i go tanning!
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[Dec. 31st, 2004|03:41 pm] |
Well I just got back from NC a day ago.. it was pretty cold.. But sooo pretty! I loved it up there.. Things turned out kinda weird though.. But its ok!- Hope everyone had a nice Christmas and are having a good break.. -gotta go.. Im having a New Years party tonight and need to go clean the house! :\ Bye! |
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[Dec. 19th, 2004|06:48 pm] |
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Haven't updated in a long time..! Lifes just been too busy and hectic lately.. I dunno I guess it seems like once things in my life start getting better they get worse again.. Its weird.. Im not trying to complain. .bcuz i hate it when people complain about how bad their lives are... I know mine could be a lot worse.. Its just I feel like theres so much going on in my life and no one to talk to and no one who understands everything Im going through... Its hard to just keep everything inside .. Sometimes it just wears you out.. and i think thats how i am.. .today was kinda one of those days where your emotions catch up w/you.. I guess you need that every now and then though..
Im just soo confused on SO many things.. I want to tell people how I feel but I can't because I might hurt them or they won't understand..
-Kind of a pointless entry... but i wanted to vent!!
--ill update later...xoxo |
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[Sep. 17th, 2004|03:27 pm] |
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| | Shedaisy..Come home soon | ] | Havent updated in a while.. So today was the first pep rally..it was pretty cool :D and then we have the game tonight against North..hope we win! -Ugh.. I feel like Ive been so busy lately.. Yesterday I slept for 14 hours! haha.. over half a day...thats crazy! I went to sleep on Wed. at 6pm then woke up Thurs. at 8:30am.. Guess I was tired? lol.. I start work at Jasons Deli in the Cape on Monday! Yay.. Im excited! :D its not actually open till Oct.4th..but I have to go for orientation and for training classes.. Im getting paid for them..So im excited! :D and I get to work with Joy and Robert:) what more could I ask for? -Andy left Monday to go to Colorado :( I miss him! He comes home tomorrow though! Im glad Ill get to see him sometime this weekend! :D I kinda missed the little guy..hehe! -Tonight after the game Joys coming over and staying the night..and then we're going "shopping" tomorrow.. lol our secret little plans... -Well Im tired so I might go take a lil nap!
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[Aug. 30th, 2004|08:22 pm] |
- Havent updated in a while.. Schools going pretty good.. Kinda stressful.. But okay.. The Cream Cape pep rally is on Friday.. and Im actually like really nervous about it for some reason!! I guess bcuz its my first pep rally on Varsity! - The dances are really cute though.. So im excited :) And then we play Cape Friday night.. Hope we win :) And then Joys gonna come over and spend the night :) lol Joy!! We'd drift apart if u didnt..hehe.. I love u!!
So Robert..Joy..and I applied at Jasons and went for interviews... Im really hoping that we all get the job!-- That'd be great! Tomorrow we'll all get the calls.. Im actually kinda nervous.. i guess because I want it so bad! But I guess whatevers meant to be will happen..right? I just kinda hope its ALL of us.. :\ Keep praying Joy!!
Havent seen Andy in a while..but I think im gonna go to his house and tan tomorrow before practice.. So i should see him then! .. ha...hes a funny kid.. homeschoolers...lol
Labor days this weekend!! Woo--ho! three days off! How exciting!! - Nikkis coming home from UCF too.. So Ill get to see her :)
Guess thats basically it :) xoxo- |
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[Aug. 19th, 2004|12:31 pm] |
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I finally got my power back on two days ago!! It was like a miracle.. I never realized how much i depended on electricity! It was sooo hot those 5 days w/o power though!! - I feel so bad for the people who still dont have power! :(
-So hurricane charley didnt do too much damage to my house.. some screens blew out..and lots of pine trees blew on my house and stuff but nothing huge.. -- and my fence is broken.. but thats about it.. Hope everyone else is ok!! -
-I went out to eat last night with my mom at la villa gardens..and saw shana :) aww she looked cute!!-Got to see her mom too! :) hehe.. -
-I had to wake up early today to take my dog to the groomers..ugh! i was so tired too.. but oh well.. I think im gonna go over to Andys in a min. and tan! but im not sure... I have to babysit his niece and nephew later too.. they're soo cute!! i love them!! :)-
-Well i really dont have anything else to say..
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[Aug. 12th, 2004|11:46 pm] |
-- So I just got done cleaning my room and helping my mom around the house to kinda get ready for the hurricane.. I am actually really scared about it.. It just keeps increasing.. My mom was supposed to be on lock down at the hospital but got someone to cover for her so she could be home with my bro and me! Which Im happy about... But we dont have shutters or anything :/ -my mom went to some meeting at the hospital and the weather people were there talking to them adn said that by the time the hurricane hit the keys it should be up to a catergorie(did i spell that right??hmm..) 4- Which is REALLY scaary!! and the winds will be like 121mph... -- :(
I talked to Andy a little earlier..and I feel bad :( I wasnt mean but i was stressed and i dunno... it came out wrong.. So now I dont know if we're fighting or what? its weird.. We've never gotten into an argument.. but Im not sure it is one..its hard to explain.. I dont think we're fighting.. ugh i just feel really bad.. but im not gonna call him tonight.. :( ahh... Ill call early in the morning before the hurricane!! I have to apologize!! :'(
Hope everyones safe tomorrow!!! Becareful.. -Hannah |
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[Aug. 5th, 2004|02:49 pm] |
Heres my schedule...Comment if ya have classes with me! 1.AP Envi.Science-O'Brien 2.AP English- Riddle 3.Personal Fitness(ha..havent taken that yet!) 4.AP American History-Fasse -B Lunch- 5.Spanish 3-Lopez 6.Pre-Calculus-Robertson 7.AP Biology- Neil |
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[Jul. 31st, 2004|03:18 pm] |
Omg...Im so mad.. Theres just this thing going on in my life right now that I just dont understand.. i dont know how anyone could ever be so heartless..and care so little about people...and their feelings..especially their own family..and lie like its not big deal..about EVERYTHING.. it was one big secret...but not ne more.. I dont know how to feel.. I just cant even imagine trying to look that person in the eyes right now.. i know i couldnt... ugh! |
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[Jul. 27th, 2004|12:54 pm] |
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| | Southside | ] | Yesterday I got my hair cut and got some highlights and lowlights...its not like a big change but i like it... :) Then met up with my mom to have lunch..and came home and worked on cleaning my house with her.. Today Im at 2 im going to a nursing home to talk to the lady about volunteering there! :) Old people are so cute... :) and then Im gonna go to the mall with Joy after 4 when shes done babysitting :) Sorry I couldnt yesterday!! :( - I have to shop for school clothes and also Andreas bday present..and Carlys!... Well guess thats it.... - Gotta get ready... -<3- |
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[Jul. 23rd, 2004|01:38 pm] |
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| | Nelly-My Place | ] | I woke up pretty early this morning at like 9am... and I went to bed really late last night at like 3am bcuz I stayed up trying to finish this book(The Scarlet Letter) which I didnt end up finishing..but im close :) should be done with it today!But now Im so tired.. i tried to take a nap.. but Roberts going to get his senior pics at 2 so I dont have time to :\...Later I will :D- Joys back..yay! and i think andrea is too.. Im not sure though i have to call her! and nikki comes back tomorrow! Joy and I might do something tonight! or definately this weekend! - I think Im babysitting the week before school starts..Im kinda nervous bcuz Ive never met this kid or his family..I hope hes not evil :\ haha... Im sure hes not! but im still kinda nervous... well ive gotta go! -<3
Ahh.. i love this song! its the new one by nelly...My Place ::when we laugh and we cry its together through the rain and the stormiest weather..we gonna still be as one its forever..its forever..:: |
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[Jul. 20th, 2004|07:03 pm] |
Got up pretty early this morning- Andy was over and I had to take him home because his car broke down :( And then I got back and Alison came over.. And then we went out to Jasons Deli (mm...) and then to the pet store..ha! poor Alison.. one of the birds had a grudge against her and kept trying to bite her! -- Then we went to the mall..:) got more air fresheners for my car :) Clean Cotton :) and then came back home!-
-Now I have to bake some kinda dessert for my mom to take to work tomorrow... :\ dont know what to make...
JOY I MISS U!! but Ill see ya bright and early tomorrow :) <3H-a-n-n-a-h<3 |
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[Jul. 19th, 2004|11:56 pm] |
I should be reading Ishael right now since I have like four more books left I have to read.. but I just cant bring myself to read about a talking monkey.. :( So here I am instead updating my journal :) I really dont have anything to say though! -- I did change my icon though.. :) - I think I might hang out with Alison tomorrow...Go guy hunting for her and maybe to Jasons Deli..(ahh..the best food ever!)--- and I wanna go to the gym tomorrow sometime too..Maybe Ill wake up early and do that.. :\...probably not though! :\
- Hope Summers going great 4 everyone... ahh 3? weeks till school starts... :( ugh.... <3 me
Miss ya Joy!! xoxo... |
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[Jul. 19th, 2004|07:50 pm] |
--So today I got some stuff accomplished! - I woke up early and went to the gym with Andy... Stayed there for a while and then went over to Ft.Myers to have lunch and then went to Christ Centered.. I got the new Jeremy Camp CD :)Which is great! Heres one of the songs its good called I Surrender To You: ::Lord, you live in me you're my best friend you're the king of kings the beginning and end now that you have my eyes i see your spirit inside of me:: ::All that I am is for you my savior I live by your word and surrender to you here where i stand in the moment father my spirit has been renewed I surrender to you:: ::You hold the key to my life in your love hand always by my side I offer all that I am so glad I realize you are the truth and the light in my life:: ::Everything I need I find in you I believe your promises are true I will lift my burdens up to you you loving grace will see me through:: ::I surrender to you:: Its a good song... I miss Joy and Andrea so much! Theyre both gone :( Joy in Sanibel and Andrea in Ohio! But they both come home thurs! - -And Ill see Joy for a little while on Wed.! -- I took my dog for a car ride today..haha.. i got kinda bored after I got home :) And now im talking to Nikki.. whos also gone in Penn.. Carly called me today..shes still in NJ! poor Carly..lol -- Well I think Im gonna read some more Ishmael..ugh! and then playing monopoly with the guys... Greg...Stefan..Robert.Andy...Chris..and maybe Andres? --- xoxo --- |
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[Jul. 18th, 2004|08:27 pm] |
--Yesterday I hung out with Joy.. got her out of her house :) I love you Joy! You are the BEST best friend anyone could ever ask for! - Im so blessed to have you in my life!- Im really sorry about what happened.. and I know Ive already told you this but I am praying for your family and you know that Im always a phone call away if you ever need to talk :)--
Today I also hung out with Joy :) We went to the movies to see I, Robot.. it was good.. Got to see Wills butt! ha.. lol owww! - Joy.. I dont know what Im gonna do without you for a week...(almost) :'( <~~ see the tear? :( Ill miss u! But ill text u and call and leave voicemails hehe..
-Andy came over a minute ago to drop off some paperwork he needs my mom to fill out for this project hes doing.. I think Im getting up early and going to the gym with him.. We'll see though Im not sure!
-Ahh gotta go read Ishmael... :\ |
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[Jul. 14th, 2004|12:29 pm] |
Hey.. Im up here in Orlando.. Staying at this awesome hotel ..its called Gaylord Palms.. Weird name right? but its really nice!!- So Monday I got here and went to Downtown Disney..and to Rainforest Cafe to eat and then to Pleasure Island... Then Tuesday got up early and went to Islands of Adventure.. It was fun :) Today I think I might go to some of the malls.. But Im not too sure yet.. :) And then tomorrow Im taking a tour of UCF :) and coming home Thurs. or Friday to spend the weekend with Joy! haha. Miss ya!.... -- Well guess thats it..... <3 xo- Hannah :) |
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[Jul. 11th, 2004|10:07 pm] |
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Last week I went up to Gainsville to tour UF with Joy :) It was really nice and really big I think I might want to go there... But then again I could change my mind in like a year.. So I dunno.. I had lots of fun though hanging out with Mongo! :) Thanks for going with us :) -
Today I went to church and then to pinchers crab shack.. and then hung out with my friend Lyndsay and went to the mall and later Joy came over! -I had to see her before I leave tomorrow!! ILL MISS U JOY!! but of course Ill be calling you non-stop! :) and we'll definately hang out this weekend when i get home before you leave! -
Im going up to Orlando.. Yay! Im excited! Get to go to downtown disney/Islands of Adventure!! Whoop Whoop! hehe... and Im also gonna get a tour of UCF.. and go to the malls :)-
-- Ugh Ive felt sick the whole day... :( hmm.. -
Well hope everyones having a great summer! xoxo..-bye~ |
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[Jul. 9th, 2004|07:31 pm] |
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I love you Bambi!
hahaha got you back for writing in my journal! i'm changing the password you lil beast! call me when you read this!
i <3 schmoo!
Love,
Schnoz..Mongo...
P.S.- EVERYBODY!!!! CHOMP!! haha it's STILL in my head |
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